A friend put a wish on a wishing site for me. The wish: Let the Hawk soar with some air

She wished for funds to help me get a portable windowless air conditioning unit. A small unit costs about $300 before tax and shipping. It was a beautiful gesture of kindness and caring.

While I was looking around for less costly portable AC’s I had commented to another friend that if only I could use the existing building in our back yard. It already has AC. We vacated the building when a storm in December 2007 damaged our roof and a door. It rains inside when it rains outside. We tried many patch pastes and sealers which cost quite a bit, but never worked. There are just too many holes. The whole roof needs to be redone. It’s a simple aluminum roof, we can easily take the panels down and put up new ones…just never had the money.

The more I looked at the wish my friend did for me to the more I started thinking that with $300 I could fix the roof, have 2 12X12 rooms that are fully handicap accessible, instead of the one 12X12 room I use now. The other building is close to the ground which would eliminate several trips down broken stairs that have no railing.



After commenting to another friend she said…why not let someone know you need help with this. Well my first response was because I have had help already. The thing is, the help I have had was to help me become able to care for myself and not need help. Nobody wants to help me have a scooter…and keep falling down stairs that only make me worse. Nobody wants to help me get AC into my room..if they knew that it would only be an item that could only help seasonally whereas for around the same cost I could have a safer, cooler, warmer, accessible room year round.

This is all pretty new learning to do things in a new way. I grew frustrated when I had to take my car to a mechanic, have it sit there for 7 days, and cost me $100 for a job that at one time, not long ago I could have done myself for 1/2 that cost and in 1/2 the time.

I have grown frustrated that we set up a room that was easy for me to get around, was closer to the animal kennel so I could still care for my special needs animals, it was close to a bathroom, close to my son’s room and during the winter it was easy to heat….then warm weather hit. We were unprepared for the fact that we would have to cool this room. Can’t do that with no window.

We tossed around an idea offered by a friend to visit local junk yards and try to get a camper we can restore…it sounded really good

But why…

We have a perfectly good building that just needs a new roof.

So…we are going to stop looking for help to get land and build our homestead. We need help now. Amy can’t go off to school while things are so up in the air.

She NEEDS to go to school. Her tuition will be paid by the GI bill and her getting her CDL and being able to get a job that pays more than 13 thousand a year will get us several steps closer to buying a piece of land. Her getting educated in a field that is always hiring is important and is our only hope.

If I can take care of myself, my son and my animals with no help that is one major concern down. We have been working towards putting our basic bills into an advance so that I won’t be paying so much once she is at school. My youngest son will have his license soon and could help me with transportation. We really only sit on the issue if my needing to be in an accessible room so I *can* take care of myself without being overheated, or falling down stairs.

So…we need to work on the roof repair and getting a ramp built for access into and out of the main house. We will start buying a panel or two every pay check, or getting fasteners or tools that we will need and hopefully in a few months we will have this done.

Ahhh….I bought a new fan last night. We shut off all the fans at Walmart and I sat in my chair on the far side of the isle. We turned each one on till we found a fan that would blow air where I sat. This was the one we found.

It was only $24.85 but the distance of the air flow is about a good 12 feet. The more expensive fans didn’t reach the far side of the isle.

So I can now cool my self down some during the day and at night when it’s cool I can put this fan in front of my door to bring the the night air.

I am feeling much more comfortable today.

Amber, an online friend stayed up with me by instant messenger last night. I was having a rough night and really needed a friend. She knows I have been looking for an old camper that I can put in my back yard to use during heating/cooling months. I could cool a camper efficiently and would be able to get around easier as everything would be only a few steps away.

She had the idea of looking in junk yards. Such a simple statement but one I had not even thought of. That gave me some hope and now that I have my car back Amy and I will go looking at junk yards to see about a camper.

Amber has a sweet little girl who has a rare blood disorder called ITP. She cannot go outside and play like other children. Something like playing tag, swinging on a swingset, riding a bike could cause an everyday bruise that could be life threatening for her. Her doctors suggested a pool for her but the pool must be sturdy and high enough so she can’t fall out of it. This costs a bit. Her mom has a request for her on Microgiving and has provided documentation that is a need for this child, not a luxury item.

Please check out her request and if you can spare a dollar or two that would be nice. If you can’t please pass the word along. You can find her Microgiving page here:

My 4 yr old daughter has a blood disorder,ITP,a pool is the
safest thing for to play in.


To find our more about little Kinley please check out here MySpace page here:

Kinleys myspace – Tells all about Kinley and ITP

To find out more about ITP please check this page out:

Platelet Disorder Support Associati – ITP support and news.

Exactly one week later….Amy picked up our car today. It took 7 days
to replace a 5 minute gasket and a 10 minute fan wire and it cost us
$100 even. I’m thrilled to have my car back but also angry at myself.
There was a day when I could have changed my own pump gasket and
replaced a fan wire. Both of my Ex-Husbands were mechanics and I
learned how to do many car repairs from the age of 17. The whole job
would have cost me less than $30 if I could still stand up and use a
few tools on my own…arrghh…well at least it didn’t cost me $200 and
at least I have my car now so it’s all good. I can go buy another fan
tonight!!